blogging is the death of daniel.
daniel is dead.

One time, I was sitting in my room and I thought, "Does following God really mean I have to wear a suit and carry a Bible?"
I mean,
Why is it that all your B.C. teachers give you lots of wonderful advice on "how" to minister,
yet, somehow I need advice on "why" to minister.
I always used to think, "I don't want to save my friends, because if their Christian walk is going to be anything like
mine,
Then I don't want them to have to go through that."
There seems to be this dichotomy in my life between what I've been told, and what I belive...
How could I save my high school?
What was I saving them from?
Fear of the devil isn't much better than living for him...
Once you've gone to the altar 100 times for the same problem, does it go away?
I never fell down...
Not once.

just for the sake of arguing...
i've decided that awkward silences on phone conversations shouldn't be seen as a problem.
i used to rack my brain to try to find something to say during those awkward phone silences...
it seems as though no matter how hard you try to think of something intelligent to say, nothing ever comes...
so what in the world am i saying anyway?
i think awkward silences should be seen more as a refreshing silence.
why do we always have to be talking anway?
why not take comfort in the fact that the other person is perfectly content with just listening to you breathe?

the more i think about it, the more i want to devote my life to writing.
maybe it's just a phase...
but for now, it's the only dream that leaves me with that feeling of contentment.
the only problem is that i don't know how or where to channel this passion...

I had an interesting thought today.
Prayer is one of the foundations of our Christian walk, and i believe that naturally we should include God in all aspects of our life.
We should share our thoughts, our dreams, our frustrations because ultimately he birthed all those things within us.
now here's the thought:
Sometimes when we pray to God for guidance on a specific matter, it seems as though he doesn't answer us.
now naturally, i normally think there are few reasons on why he doesn't seem to be answering us.
the first reasons could be because of unconfessed sin in our life.
the second reasons could be because we aren't waiting and listening to his voice, or we are unfamiliar with the way he is speaking to us.
and the third reasons is that he might want us to be patient and wait until it's the right time for him to guide us.

well, here's my thought (This is really the thought now.)
I think there's a fourth reason in which God might not be guiding us on a specific matter.
God maybe leaving the decision in our own hands. After all, he made us and we're his children, and he wants us to grow. So maybe at certain times in our life, he doesn't specifically guide us because he trusts that deep down we have the capability and the potential to make the right decisions.

I know, my thought/revelation may seem quite elementary, but you must understand that i don't normally think in these terms.

currently listening to:
The Smiths - Hatful of Hollow