the days are getting brighter.
i still have my problems,
but hopefully they will be dealt with.

Now Joshua was dressed in flithy clothes as he stood before the angel. The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes."
Then he said to Joshua, "See, I have taken away your sin, and i will put rich garments on you."
Then I said, "Put a clean turban on his head." So they put a clean turban on his head and clothed him, while the angel of the Lord stood by.
The angel of the Lord gave this charge to joshua: "This is what the Lord Almighty says: 'If you walk in my ways and keep my requirements, then you will govern my house and have charge of my courts, and I will give you a place among these standing here."
Zechariah 3:3-6

if we just took the time to get a glimpse of God's glory
if we obeyed his requirements,
better days would be all around us.

My question is, how do i get back?
Have i lost his presence? Have i lost his glory? Somehow, in the confusion of life, i've started to live in my own shallow little bubble.

how do i find the balance?
i've always been a man of extremes.
as i write this, i'm looking around room that's full of material possessions.
do i need all these books? I hardly read any of them.
do i need more musical instruments?
do i need all these cds?

shall i call for a garage sale?

i probably won't...
but, i hope that i'll recognize that these things don't complete me,
my ability as a writer doesn't complete me.
my ability as a musician doesn't complete me.

the simplicity of God's love completes me....

i'm numb with madness. in little spurts i'm functional, the inbetween is panic and travelling places in cars.

i am the instrument of social revolution.