so, i'm heartbroken
its a feeling i haven't felt in a long time
to make matters worse, i'm heartbroken with deep feelings of remorse and regret
In the past i deeply hurt a friend i love and didn't realize it
he had feelings for me deeper than friendship and i unintentionally made him feel inferior
to make matters worse my feelings changed for that friend
after knowing him for my entire life i realized i didn't want to be without him
While i came to realize this, he found himself another girl
Oh cruel irony how i hate you

this is me reading dan kangs entry - hahahahahahahahahahaha
and whats with old stalking ladies?

yesterday, i was in the rutland pharmasave shopping around for deodorant and hair gel. as i was walking around, i started to get this eerie feeling that i was being followed. so i turned around and there was this lady who was probably about 45 years old, wearing grey jogging pants and a dirty yellow sweatshirt. So i continue with my browsing, but it seemed that no matter where i went this lady followed. So i decided to test if she actually was following, so i started walking down random aisle zig zagging around the store. Sure enough, the woman followed me like a hawk. At this point in time, i started to get a little bit concerned. I looked at the lady and wondered what sparked her interest in me. Why was i her target? Why made me so interesting, or different that i needed to be stalked in a Pharmasave? So there we were, in the hair dye section, and there i was pretending to be interested in burgundy natural hair dye, and there she was pretending to be interested in the endless shades of blonde dyes.
I felt like turning around and confronting her on her stalking. I felt like saying, "so... why are you following me in a pharmasave?"
but i didn't...
we never said a word.
we just stood there looking at the endless array of possible colors...

on to a different matter completely....

i honestly think there's a possibility that i might be going insane.
this whole past week, i have been leading our church's Vacation Bible School. So, needless to say, it's been a stressful hectic week. Well after the third day, i stopped by an esso to buy something to drink.
as i got out of the car, i started talking to myself... i said something like, "Gotta get something to drink, maybe water... yes... i'll get water... it'll satisfy my thirst."
Well, as i was saying this, i noticed one of the gas station employees staring at me really oddly.
then it hit me,
Who was i talking to?
and why was i talking?

it's a strange condition.

currently listening to:
dave matthews band - busted stuff

for the love of my sanity, would someone please blog besides me!