RIBBIT!

in the silence lurks voices bent on the destruction of all we hold dear
we try so hard to hold on
we are strained by bullets so tempting
streaming into the darkness without hope of redemption
every eskimo falls prey to a variety of silent wonders
do not stray from the path for too long or you will be lost amongst the other thrill seekers
instead, life tells you to reach and reach
there is something within your grasp, you are not trying hard enough
life is telling you to reach and reach
you are not trying hard enough
everything
has
an end

i believe you are in view.

i had a great talk with a guy tonight.
For the first time in this summer, i got to unload on a guy my age in the same town i'm in
I've missed that
especially since the guy i would usually talk to is the one i need to talk about
its an interesting feeling to talk to a big, burly, good looking guy, about another guy
ironic in a way
usually it would not be the case (me with my fickle emotions)
I would flirt and make much eye contact
be a tease and everything else i hate in other girls like me
but no
not today
not any day for any longer
no more manipulation using my female wiles
I want to be the woman God wants me to be
not what i feel i should portray myself as
i think i might just be growing up