i had a great talk with a guy tonight.
For the first time in this summer, i got to unload on a guy my age in the same town i'm in
I've missed that
especially since the guy i would usually talk to is the one i need to talk about
its an interesting feeling to talk to a big, burly, good looking guy, about another guy
ironic in a way
usually it would not be the case (me with my fickle emotions)
I would flirt and make much eye contact
be a tease and everything else i hate in other girls like me
but no
not today
not any day for any longer
no more manipulation using my female wiles
I want to be the woman God wants me to be
not what i feel i should portray myself as
i think i might just be growing up