i wonder...without outside expectations, who would i be?
i am sick and tired of expectations.
christian expectations
family expectations
expectations because of where i grew up, where i went/go to school
expectations based on how i look
i want to be able to figure out who i am and what i want to do without basing it on what others expect, whether intentionally or unintentionally
i don't desire to go to the other extreme either though-where i would do crazy things just because nobody expects me too.
sometimes i think that i would be much happier if i wasn't always concerned about how others see me, concerned about living up to their expectations of me
but then, i've bought into expectaions so much, that some of them are what i expect of myself now....much undoing needs to happen