within the walls of my room...
my mind is at ease.
within these walls my emotions feel normal.
within these walls
i can live comfortably.
when i step outside, a feeling of numbness fills my entire being.
it's safe that way
no one can penetrate you
no one can rape your thoughts and feelings.

all the life mechanisms are intact and working, i'm just not sure if i am.
better days are ahead
i too am sure of it.

so until then,
i'll keep trying...
the freezing numbness will wear off in due time