the drugs she takes cause her brain to stop functioning in certain ways that aren't noticeable unless you are often around her. i think today wore on me more than any others have. my mother, in a self induced coughing frenzy upset because i am the son that cannot stand her existence as the most terrible mother ever. i am helpless and any of my worsds only aggrivate the situation further so, i flee to the basement.
i am trapped in thoughts and darkness.
and when the madness is over, i'm not so sure that the end will be in sight.